Planning to write book and me thoughts

So as all and everyone knows 2025 almost over and 2026 is almost here we have come to a end of 2025 on a wednesday amazing we are heading to 2026 on a thursday exciting times for does whom believe it

2025 i been learning many languages and i know some are hard to speak 2026 i be learning more a long way for a higher speaking little by little learning but all in good time right languages are their

I been thinking to myself all 2025 where am going really you know what i mean asking the questions yet answering myself in the process of 2025 seeking inward me than some point of the year of 2025 i said i like writing than i said on the of 2026 i should write a book but sense i have no way of writing a book or create a book why not do it in a different way maybe not the normal but it is sorta different for me many for other idk

So 2012-2025 i guess you can say i have gone so many changes deep in me and yet i been learning new things in myself but than again life is about learning something new every day

2026 in a way will be a new beginning for me because in some ways am doing something new for me but than again writing always has been in my life something about i love so as the wise person said why not make it a passion than i said to myself why the hell i mean write a book bro maybe not the traditional ways and forms but thats one way you know for you

So i been think to myself its not about the people fully its more about me you than anything i been thinking if am gonna write a book how the hell should i start it tho

I guess its true you take your own time because patients is patients but time is time let it flow out of you like water flow in the river you know

I never wrote a book but i am curious on what i may say about me every book is left with true writers has piece of them you just as journalist peoms and music writers and singers you know

Today is like another day time on times patient in patients all you need is a move in the movements  you know

I guess i love to empowered myself write poems you know just comes to me in the flow but when i write it flows out i mean the writing a book more for me but i curious what people feel about what i write

I guess am not gonna make any goals on my 2026 am gonna go on the flow lets see where the flow takes me on 2026 and what learn from different people 

Bro i have no idea what type of characters am gonna put in this so call book or what am gonna name it will learn from myself in the process or not i guess i will wait and see all in good time

I guess to wite a book you dont need a degree or ect i thought you did i guess not 😅🤣😂 silly me i guess thats the plus sight 

Bewtween 2012-2025 i been lost yet my ups and downs and slowly finding me seeking i guess my passion calling i guess writing is a calling writing book could be my calling whom knows

Sometimes feels like life took so much from me somewhere deep inward me is crying but other part of me feel the urge to free myself in writing

In the unseen i see many people living life but at some point i havent really live mine but somewhere in me it hurt you but than again i wasnt fully their i can explain that position of my life just happen when others have children and married i am still single at least thats how it feels i ask myself what have i really done in my life you

I love taking photos i dont have a camera photograph style you know i use the cellphone at times i get good image you know get the right love and image of it

In a way am glad i have no children but somewhere inward me is asking for them a curse a blessing at the same time but as life i have to let go our accept it if it happens i believe everything happens as it should for a higher cause you know

Ever sense as child i been into things on television you know normal stuff novelas horror movies and ect more i use to dream i be on television or in a movies but long time i stop dreaming early age 

Sometimes in a young age someone like me lose hope and in the process lose yourself not plan you know it just happens and sucks nut you know

In high school i never really felt i belong as middle school i was lost in myself and in elemetary school its like going into the flow of it

Its funny you in elementary i jump to school to school because they say i wasnt learning or whatever i guess i been in at least three or four schools in does time but in middle school for does two years stay the same as the high school stay in the same does for years

I guess to be honest in my life my hole 17th minor times of my life idk how to describe it now sense i woke up on 2012 now in 2025 looking back my minor years i guess my 17th as minor i been lost in myself i think to myself i lost so many years seems stupid but real

I wish i could describe that thing the best way to describe it as being inside yourself and looking outside as everything happening but when you wake up you come to awareness unconscious concise good knows what it weird you feel and all and everything all at once damn

To be honest i think thats not normal you know?

One thing about me is i love drawing people may see that as childish but you know their wrost things in life and thats not one because of drawing they have been on the television as cartoon sometimes people over think things

I know we are in winter but doesnt really feel fully like winter little snow but i prefer the real good and reall snow daily because that the normal for me

In all my past 34 years i havent really live in life as they say all and everything is happening as it should sometimes i feel like am curse yet a blessing by itself but than again am looking for me seeking my own love in my passion seeking love you know 2026 is about seeking passionate love inward me but its little about what is coming will it be bad or something only i do time 2026 will flow lets see where am going all i can do is flow in life like all the rest of the peoples in life and their truths